This video is profound.
https://youtu.be/5yzkeFAn4mI I watched it to learn about Psych-K, but I got so much more out of it. I encourage you to watch it.
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I recently visited my family in Florida for two weeks. I reverted to my old lifestyle patterns and just went nuts. I drank soda, ate fast food, three plus meals a day, got very little exercise, etc. Needless to say, I gained some weight. I developed some pain in my feet that made it hurt to walk. A massage therapist told me I had crystals in my feet. My dad has gout, so that is pretty concerning.
When I got back home I immediately went to a dance retreat for 4ish days. I ate low carb food/drink except for one party one night. I drank lots of water. I got more exercise. When I got home I went down to one low carb meal a day. Now I'm going to fast for 48 hours. I've lost 9 pounds in 5 days. My foot pain is going away. Go me! I feel so motivated! I don't expect I'll ever be perfect. I probably will screw up from time to time. But the time between the "screw up" and "when I start taking good care of myself again" is getting shorter. And I "screw up" much less often than I used to. I'll focus on those achievements and praise myself for my progress. My old mentality would've beaten me up for "screwing up" and thought, "Oh well, you've already screwed up, so you may as well have the food you want right now." I was hopeless and had no confidence in my ability to actually overcome my weight problem, so I didn't try most of the time. Besides, food is good. Food made me feel good in the moment, and I felt terrible. These old patterns are sometimes hard to recognize in myself, but once I do recognize them, it's easier to change them. I've just read, "Brain Over Binge" by Kathryn Hansen. I highly recommend this book if you have gone to traditional psychotherapy or Overeaters Anonymous (OA) and they have failed to stop your eating disorder. It was really helpful to have someone explain why those programs didn't work for me, and then give me another way to look at things that I could try. Informative and empowering. Yes!
Kathryn explains why the philosophies of both traditional psychotherapy and OA are disempowering. They both foster dependence rather than independence. You are encouraged to rely and put your trust in outside help (the therapist or OA group), versus tapping into your vast inner potential. For some of us, this is unhelpful at best. If you've gone to traditional therapy or tried OA and they haven't brought an end to your eating disorder, I recommend you read this book. It will be comforting to read a book by someone who has been where you are and overcome it. She can point you toward a possible way out. Best wishes. |
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